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Ostiarius

by Zac Leaser

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1.
Elysium 06:57
Elysium When another day begins without another life When the gentle breeze caresses the skin on your lovely face When the tree leaves fall to the earth out of the sadness of a memory That is when you'll know I am in the fields of elysium And when the sun rises And finds its way to your dark brown eyes I want you to know That I am right there inside your heart Heaven will truly be beautiful Just you wait and see But until we meet again Just live your life, and be free As I walk through the fields of the afterlife I can only think about the one that I will always love Cursed we are in the dying of this light That burns between my eyes As the sky turns black with the ashes Burning everything you love in between Cursed we are in the dying of this light That burns between my eyes As the sky turns black with the ashes Burning everything you love in between Through the eyes of the dead I can always see Seperation all around me, but I do not give a shit When a day is so meaningless to me I can only hope to walk through heaven with the almighty Ahh to see a life beyond the gates Whether it be heaven or it be hell The portals of time will decide our fate either way The question really lyes within oneself Where does one belong? Is it heaven? Or is it hell? To see a life beyond the gates The portals of time will decide our fate either way The question really lyes within oneself Where does one belong? Is it heaven, or is it hell? To see a life beyond the gates The portals of time will decide our fate either way The question really lyes within oneself Where does one belong? Is it heaven, or is it hell? The question really lyes within oneself Where does one belong? Is it heaven, or is it hell?
2.
Absentia 07:40
Absentia Misdirected and misguided when I close my eyes at night visions of light disappear and the nightmare overwhelms my mind and body Paralyzed inside, as I can't even feel my face Disregarding my own existence as I drown in the abyss I am nothing, just a shade of mortality Take a good look in the mirror and you will see only flesh but take a look inside yourself and you will see a true darkness Misdirected and misguided when I close my eyes at night Misdirected and misguided when I close my eyes at night visions of light disappear My vision blurs as I look into my own soul My body yearns for feeling as it has grown numb Oh how the memories of being young weigh on the mind and the thoughts of this life Wishing we could reverse cycles of time Living in moments that are from the past My vision blurs as I look into my own soul My body yearns for feeling as it has grown numb Oh how the memories of being young weigh on the mind and the thoughts of this life Wishing we could reverse cycles of time Living in moments that are from the past Oh how the memories of being young weigh on the mind and the thoughts of this life Wishing we could reverse cycles of time Living in moments that are from the past I see in the dark of light One moment in time is forever In the heart Building pieces of what make us who we are I see in the dark of light One moment in time is forever
3.
Macula 05:12
Macula Though my eyes fight through a haze Through the blindness of the night I just might realize what it's like to truly see To see within my soul, instead of this faulted sight I don't want to fall below the expectations of myself and all of those around me and when the vision has gone into a dark confinement When the world leaves you alone Is when one finally sees It's that same feeling coming with a fucked up premonition That I missed out on a real one Giving me depression and another headache It's a hell of a life, when you take it in stride I put a mark on my body, and stench on my soul Dealing with the devil Cuz I'm on another level of desperation Though my eyes fight through a haze Through the blindness of the night I just might realize what it's like to truly see To see within my soul, instead of this faulted sight I don't want to fall below the expectations of myself and all of those around me and when the vision has gone into a dark confinement When the world leaves you alone Is when you finally see and when the vision has gone into a dark confinement When the world leaves you alone Is when one finally sees I want to see It's that same feeling coming with a fucked up premonition That I missed out on a real one Giving me depression and another headache It's a hell of a life, when you take it in stride I put a mark on my body, and stench on my soul Dealing with the devil Cuz I'm on another level of desperation I want to see It's that same feeling coming with a fucked up premonition That I missed out on a real one Giving me depression and another headache It's a hell of a life, when you take it in stride I put a mark on my body, and stench on my soul Dealing with the devil Cuz I'm on another level of desperation blah I can see my vision fading I can hear my heartbeat going dull I can taste my lips stop moving I can feel my soul is going on I can see my vision fading I can hear my heartbeat going dull I can taste my lips stop moving I can feel my soul is going on This hate I have for life Curses me and my mind Oh how I wish I could be free of all my anxiety This hate I have for life Curses me and my mind Oh how I wish I could be free
4.
Dissemble 07:28
Dissemble Never show my emotion and never say what is on my mind Building a wall of numbness Alone and so disconnected Suffocating my own lungs in the abyss that is my own mind Well I am not sick but I am not well I am just a void In a worthless life I can show you hate and I can show you love All that you desire in your shallow heart I can provide with the cost of your own soul Well I am not sick but I am not well I am just a void In a worthless life I can show you hate and I can show you love All that you desire in your shallow heart I can provide with the cost of your own soul As the leaves regenerate all around me I look into the blue of the sky Remembering why I am even here Only to enjoy the beauty of this world Never show my emotion and never say what is on my mind Building a wall of numbness Alone and so disconnected Suffocating my own lungs in the abyss that is my own mind I look into the blue of the sky to enjoy the beauty of this world I look into the blue of the sky to enjoy the beauty of this world It's the same conversation that I have with everybody Talk about the politics and weather but it doesn't even matter to me what you think and when nothing even sounds amusing waiting for another person giving their opinion so I disagree politely when in reality I just want to die It's the same conversation that I have with everybody Talk about the politics and weather but it doesn't even matter to me what you think and when nothing even sounds amusing waiting for another person giving their opinion so I disagree politely when in reality I just want to die I look into the blue of the sky to enjoy the beauty of this world I look into the blue of the sky to enjoy the beauty of this world
5.
The Emptiness I can hear the sound of rain and the roaring of the waves I can see the vast blue skies of beauty before my eyes I can feel the warmth of the sun on my face as I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky I can smell the air as it fills my lungs Suffocating while I breathe in divine scents and yet I cannot portray any thoughts of my own happiness An emptiness eats inside of me that I cannot explain As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky As I lift it upward towards the sky Not like that of a black abyss filled with the stars Not like that of a never-ending ocean of blue Not like that of a black abyss filled with the stars Not like that of a never-ending ocean of blue As far as one can see, there is always an emptiness As far as one can see, there is always an emptiness And while it fills the mind Only to leave a nothingness Into the lone disconnect One can only feel so drained Try to fill it with lust and booze And while it fills the mind Only to leave a nothingness Into the lone disconnect One can only feel so drained Try to fill it with lust and booze And while it fills the mind Only to leave a nothingness Into the lone disconnect One can only feel so drained Try to fill it with lust and booze And while it fills the mind Only to leave a nothingness Into the lone disconnect One can only feel so drained Try to fill it with lust and booze Into a void I go within Surrendering to the force that pulls me in To find hope through a sea of darkness To find love for myself again Into a void I go within Surrendering to the force that pulls me in To find hope through a sea of darkness To find love for myself again
6.
Ubiquitous 06:47
Ubiquitous (Dedicated to Adan Ornelas RIP) This life is such a cruel thing When you lose the ones that you love Never to speak again or even have that one more laugh Only in my dreams will I see you again My long lost friend oh how I miss you dearly to this day Well was it fate that brought you down? Or was it just another day in our Gods will? My feeble mind will never know Maybe in the afterlife we will see one another once again Well this life on earth is only a moment and the world moves forward with or without our own existence Yet the afterlife that awaits our souls is beyond the mortal mind and the world moves forward with or without our own existence Yet the afterlife that awaits our souls is beyond the mortal mind This life is such a cruel thing When you lose the ones that you love Never to speak again or even have that one more laugh Only in my dreams will I see you again My long lost friend oh how I miss you dearly to this day Well was it fate that brought you down? Or was it just another day in our Gods will? My feeble mind will never know Maybe in the afterlife we will see one another once again Well this life on earth is only a moment My heart still aches with a sadness but there is still work waiting for me here One day we will be reunited Until then, I will only see you in my dreams
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Dauntless 06:54

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released January 1, 2021

Written and recorded by Zac Leaser
Engineering, mixing, and mastering by Kyle Westin
Additional engineering by Phil Pluskota

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Technical Melodic Death Metal
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